By Erin Hougland
communication stations in the
frame of this Nation, and its nations,
chaotically flows into ears and brains
and drains us down the tubes of fear-
bending our minds into times
that are crushing the lines
the use of this fearing
is leering into our hearts,
is peering into our souls
and is sneering as we go
quivering into our closed rooms
where we sweep up confusion with brooms
made of definitions and rules-
creating a truth that binds us into a fuss,
until we surrender
and drool out the sad remnants of faith.
handing over and over again, our lives
into those hands that thrive
on our misery, it is their only epitome,
and drive us
off the cliffs into an abyss of list-less-ness...
the depths of submission
because we gave them our permission.
and it Reigns and it rains
down on us
trying to wash the stains away
but we stay, and we pray
that they, may have
the solution to the problem.
and we are surprised to find
we scream and we cry,
"these solutions are pollutions!"
and they ignore
because they are bored
with our cries,
so they glare
and continue to stare
at our problems that weren't even there
from the start.
but they tell us that they care
and our downfall is,
we believe them.
running and flailing around
with out any knowledge of how to swim
because we gave it away.
little did we know how grim
when we signed our names
on those lines that sought only to frame
us inside prison walls.
and nothing is gained
from this game parade
of blame and shame.
it's not them that will save you.
it's nothing you couldn't already do;
it's here and it's now.
so throw the radio to the wall
and watch it crumble and fall,
its fallible, don't worry that's not radical,
pick up the false broom,
crack the handle against the door of your tomb.
into the fields of your old soul,
roll around and unfold your mold
in the memory of what you were from birth:
Erin is finishing up her first year in ESR's M.Div program, with an emphasis in writing. She lives in Indianapolis with her husband where she works as the volunteer coordinator for the Neighborhood Christian Legal Clinic and is an active member of the Episcopal church. Erin believes creativity and imagination in art and writing anchor people in the realities of being in the world.